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May as well mark this a tempo.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Why can I only be locked in to compete when its supposed to be an easy run and there is nothing to race? Why do I live out these race day fantasies in my head that never come true and never will? Why do I make myself suffer like this?
Why do I waste everyone's time with stupid shit like this? Why can't I be this ready to go on race day? Whats wrong with me and why am I not faster